im scared

i forgot to read you today.
you surprised me when i noticed your stance.
she's scaring me because i can hear her.
and the blinking.
and my hands.
i can feel my hands.
and my bleeding swollen gums
and my sad throat doesn't grow
no matter how much hot is poured down.
and you're crying.
and for the first time it's well.
and she's well staring, she's so happy.
can you understand she's in the perfect place
to fall.
if only i could understand your eyes this time
i'd tell you i'm well..
i'm a downfall, i burden on your back.
and you don't mind...
it's my turn to make you happy.
where are my chances.

when i close my eyes
hopefully it will be there.
maybe i'll learn to use it.
the things i make up i don't work.
because i haven't figured them out yet.
they're just there
waiting.
for somebody to come along and help me use them.
maybe i made it for you, or for somebody else.
i would like to take you there.
maybe if you take my hand and close your eyes too
we'll be there.

and i never knew what floating felt like until it happened.

he can see what's beautiful in what you think is hideous.
he is strong and humbly stands by his morals.
he is good to you and good to me.
he can see you're beautiful from a mile away.
he can beat a messy drum and stay clean.
his eyes are beautiful and he'll look in yours.
his hands are big in more then one way but he won't admit it.
he is the gentleman you never get to see.
he has a beautiful voice.
he can hear you when you need him to.
he comes around.

coming

stop being so afraid.
because i already saw this one coming.
and it can't be anything but only the most wonderful.
and i'm here, and i couldn't be better
because you're here with me.
and you look into my eyes,
and for the first time i can't look away.
there's nothing to do but smile
as i'm waiting for you to sing.
i'm not afraid of anything
nothing is stopping the air under my feet
and nothing is stopping those tears this time
and it's there

and your heart's there.
and mine is too.
and they're dancing.
it's summer
and it's just like i thought it would be.

birds from the beginning
i think it's really weird
and i saw these coming
i heard these coming
and i felt these coming
and you're here.

and i couldn't be happier.

birds from the beginning

do you see any paint on my face?
you're not peeling it off, so it isn't there.
and i'm just going to wait for you to write with me in mind.
and wait for you to realize that you can tell the world
that you're in love.
because he's waiting.
there's nobody that's going to stop me in what i want to do
or what i put on my head
the way i keep my hair out of my face
or the way i talk to everything.
because even though, you might all think i'm crazy,
just a crazy potential cat lady
who may or may not grow old and alone
and talk to her paintings as well as anything else
you all might think i'm crazy
but you all secretly love me.
because you know i'll at least give you a chance
to sing me your song
and i'll listen.
and you'll blush
but i'll love it.
and maybe i won't tell you.
but that doesn't stop me from loving you more
and more.

we'll all keep spinning and you won't forget who i am
when you catch me in a food court and smile
because i haven't changed a bit.

maybe the wrinkles from my smiles will grow deeper
but my laugh will stay the same
maybe my teeth won't be as sheep as they are now
and yes i stole that.
but they will be real.
maybe my sight will finally fall away
but my eyes will be the same
and you will see that i am just the same as i am today
and that i'm not going anywhere.

i don't ever want to forget what you smell like
and what you look like
and the sound of your voice
like i do in dreams
but i wake up and it's all still there
still the same
so im happy
and you should be to.

we can be birds.
and nothing will go wrong.

and i will be able to say
that i have never felt the way i do now
and we'll fly away.