i woke to the sound of my own voice.

i woke up laughing.
my life is better then my dreams.
when i'm angry in them every night.
and i'm yelling.
constantly slipping and dropping everything.
when dark bridges are the best days of my life.
and the times i remember what it feels like.
when i dream it's replaced with what i'm running from.
and my happiness goes and visits rarely
like the daughters waiting for the day to run away.
we're all running and falling in love.
you won't admit that you miss us before we've gone.
greatest smiling moments are spent with the boy who would actually appreciate my thought out flowers.
and not throw them away.
and violins actually mean something to me when i hear you.
and your voice never gets old.
and the beat of your drum lights up like faces meeting on occasional splendid visits.
one day i won't come back.
i'm probably happily ever after when i stop coming home.
you'll give yourself credit like you were ever mentally there.
and i'll just wake up laughing again and again.
i'll miss you but i won't admit it.
i want this shirt to never lose your smell.
you're just going to keep me smiling.
and your oh steady breathing will keep me calm like the times you hold my head and my face and i'm quiet.
and you don't stand above me when you realize how young parts of my mind are with being oh so easily entertained and my personalities visit you often, most of them love you dearly like the smiles do.
the day i forget what your face looks like or the way you smell,
the sound of your voice and the love of your laugh is the day my heart will break in half.
i'll wake up crying and i'll come home.
and i will not let go.
my hearts grow when they hurt and yours will mold.
our faces will become one again
and i'll wake up laughing.
my life is better then my dreams.

i am the girl who stands asleep

i am the girl who's had her life crisis at the age of eighteen.
the girl who breaths quickly to make up for her wasted time.
i am the girl who might need you.
i am the girl who won't repeat herself.
i am the girl who needs to come down.
the girl who needs to learn to listen, and see.
the girl who counts fingers and makes sure you're real.
i am the girl who's forgotten everything as it happened.
the girl who skipping town and leaving her lovelies behind.
the girl who finds in necessary.
i am the girl who can't tell time and can't see the future.


i am the girl who fell asleep too many times and missed out on too much.
i am the girl who carries too much,
who's running but not late and flustered and flushed.
the girl who can't talk and walk at the same time.
the girl who's tired of zombies.
i am the girl who believes that you love her.
i am the girl who would die for you.

i am the girl who calms and closes her eyes
and counts each wonderful moment she's spent with you
and realizes
you've changed her life.

i am the mouth with a smile.
the heart with a beat.

i am the day you fell in love

bradley victor

the world smiles at us.

today we float in place on cement as the clouds run above us.
my hearts beating and you can hear each pound,
you can feel each pound.
i can yours.
time, and the world stops and we're laughing.
nothing can touch us because we're up above.
nobody can catch us because we're flying.
you are here and you're going nowhere,
you listen to my silence and you look me in the eyes when they're blank.
you can hear me when i'm sleeping and you punish my strands of insanity that stream in our way. you keep them when i don't need them, when they're getting the best of us.
you're beautiful hands just keep me tight and balled in your palms and you squeeze.
you don't even have to say it anymore because i know.
when standing makes more sense then anything else and touching you means i'm untouchable, the world stops.
i can hear you when you're lips are closed.
still smiles around us when people can taste our being.
i get clumsy and right as my skin touches the ouch of ground you pick me up and i fall back into place, right back into your palms.
and fall asleep.
the world stops and smiles at us.

thump

my drummer ran away so i'm left here to beat on my own.
i hope you don't mind, i'm a little out of shape.
i've been waiting for someone like you to come along
and take away what hurts me..
i can see you have you're own tune too,
they think you're just as weird as i am
lets just run then.
i'm so glad to say hello each day
and that you'll hold my hand and say you won't leave
makes me even louder.
so my head is cloudy, it will clear when it rains.
that's all i need.